this really hit me to my core.

SPOILER ALERT!!

in the latest episode of glee, the closeted character is outed. as a consequence, he attempts suicide.

it’s really hard to express to those who don’t go through this. but really, before you end up killing an innocent person with words, think about it. personally, before coming out, i have endured countless upon countless mean words that have put me on the edge of suicide way too many times. it was my darkest secret that i kept only to myself. in order to make myself “less gay” i even made fun of my “other side” as if it was a funny thing. i hated being gay. i wished every time that i would magically become “normal” and to be accepted for the rest of my life. i even stupidly thought that maybe i could hit my head so hard with something that i would get some weird amnesia to become straight. no matter what, i was constantly struggling with myself. those who love me, my family, my friends, would constantly say the worst things about gay people without knowing that they were just cutting deep into me each time. thus, i want to warn everyone who watched this episode, it is too real. there are people who bully like this as if its right to pick on gay people. but imagine, being in my shoes, fear of having no friends, no family, no understanding. those days when i would want to tighten that belt on my neck or drink wildly to somehow get into an “accident” are too real. and i consider myself a lucky one. some gay people just don’t have the luxury of support. thus my heart goes out to them and i will do anything to prevent this from happening, ever.

(Source: iturnedviolet, via jayyyychow)